MM is taking over my liiiife. so is ali adamo ;) the shoot with jeff was relaxed and comfortable, ali and i both had a great time and im pleased with how the photos came out. thursday is our shoot with alvaro, with wigs, fishnets, someone to do our makeup, and saran wrap. it's going to be crazy. i went to the gym twice today because i'm feeling huge. tonight there are too many choices, i don't know where to go. 

i'm developing this recent trust problem, it might even be because of some of the really sketchy, creepy im's i get from people off MM asking me questions so personal my mouth is dropped to the floor. in a way it feels like these people are out to hurt me and i personally do not see the difference between them (whoever is behind that computer) and the people i surround myself with daily. it's a horrible thing to say or think, but i place people that i know in the position behind that computer, asking me personal questions and tricking me, putting me down, saying things they've previously thought but never had the balls to say to me. i've blocked the screen names but somehow they keep coming around with new ones. it's getting out of hand. was it a terrible mistake to join MM in the first place? hope not, hope some things good can come from it. 

anyway, i'm planning an environmental shoot saturday in waltham, ma since i'll be in jill's area for the weekend. sunday i've got to get out of work which starts at 2, there's no way i'll make it back in time. plus i might leave jill's monday instead of sunday. not sure yet, depends if she has off work. friday is luke's show in norwood. jill lives in the most convenient town possible. i cannot wait to see her and leigh. i feel like i am missing a part of myself. 

i could ramble for hours but i think i'm done for now.