what a long eventful day. breakfast was good i had grilled provologne cheese on wheat with a side of fruit with diet coke hahah. mmm. then worked til 5, got 2 new flip flops at h&m, drove to poughkeepsie, saw a few people, everything was okay for the most part. came outside when it was time to leave, and was told 4 people were shot while we were watching the show just down the block. scary. the dear hunter's 2 new songs were wonderful, it sucked that so many people left before they went on, but what else is new.. its the loft and no one ever stays for the headliner :/ i talked to cassie a lot she's such a sweetheart. lydia was great as usual and i met mindy after. i didn't pay much attention to eye alaska or you and me and everyone we know (or whatever) because i was at the bar talking to rob for so long.. but that was great to see him and kyle and matt sak and chris and jolly and mur and adam and bob and dan and jess and meet her bf..etc etc.. got back to cortlandt around 1 and went right to kolby's since she was having people over. stayed til about 3, didn't drink though, came home, finished packing, and now i get to wake up in 40 min. can't wait for us to get to canada! be back thursday night, and if i can't come online then, i'm going to the jersey shore fri-sun or mon.. be back the 1st!

wow. working out at one am is wayyyy more fun than working out at normal hours with other people there. you can run around to all the machines and not have to worry about holding people up or waiting for them to finish one. so great! except i'm wide awake and should actually be tired considering anne and i shopped for seven hours today at the Garden State Plaza and the Palisades (the two biggest malls i have ever been to), then went to matt's new apartment in kisco and played rock band for a while. tomorrow i am dreading.. wake up around 845, breakfast in ossining at the wobble cafe with the girls (but i'll probably get like mozzarella sticks or a wrap since i hate breakfast..if i could order cold pizza that'd actuallly be perfect), shoot over to premier to work out (hope i have time) (hope i don't sleep through breakfast too actually..), go over to work 1-5, my last fucking shift at hot topic for a long time :/ thennnn take myself, ali, and possibly doug if he can get someone to cover his shift up to poughkeepsie for the dear hunter, lydia, and matt's band where the wild things are. i think adam and bob and dan are going. it'll be an ftf reunion :):):):) then after the show, come home, pack, sleep an hour or two, and anne is picking me up around 6 am to leave for montreal. im soooo excited/nervous/not ready to be in another country staying with a foreign family for a week, but it'll be amazing and i can't wait to see both charles and francois. got $450 worth of skirts/shirts/leggings/boots/scarves/berets/dresses today...so i think i'm set for the trip and for school for quite a while. found the most flattering dress at urban today and i bought it in olive and black as well because it was half price. also got a winter jacket at h&m,

 although no winter jacket could possibly keep me warm in boston during those freezing walks to class and DH and i hope the gym. it's long and black and so wonderful. but i can layer everything. i bought white leggings today how weird is that..i don't think i have ever seen anyone wear white leggings..i won't be able to wear them with much but i'll try and make do. okay not that anyone needed to know all of this i'm just tired and spaced out and won't stop typing. see u in a weeekkkk

I thought we were only friends, I didn't mean to lead you on or make you think that this might be going somewhere.. This always happens to me and I don't want to break anyone's heart but I can't help it because I love you but I'm not in love with you..

The weekend was fantastic. The 4 of us (Ali, Steven, Tony, and I) spent every second together. It was so easygoing and relaxing. I love that house and wish I had another month or so on this summer so I could be up there with the water and the trees and peace. 

Tomorrow I'm seeing The Dear Hunter, Lydia, and Matt's band Where the Wild Things Are. I'm really excited for the show, but nervous about someone who's going to be there. 

Today Anne and I are tanning at her pool again, and then going to the Garden State Plaza. I was there Tuesday and they opened an Urbs :):):) There's an H&M, Charlotte Russe, Express, Forever 21.. I need so much stuff for Montreal/school. At urban on Tues I got great stuff for school, and it sort of made me excited to go back to school for a little while. But then I was back to being depressed about it and wishing I could stay here for another semester or something. I miss Leigh and Jill and the 42 crew too much though. 

myxertones.com is my favorite website. i made three new ringtones for free :-) let's see what have i been doing.. worked a lot this week..well not a LOT but for me it's a lot because i'm not used to working every day. met some cool new people who are working there now. part of me just wants to stay home forever and work around here, but i know i have to return to school and early classes and having a schedule. (ugh). tonight i'm going to diana's house and drinking with her and anicia and their friends, and tmrw i work 11-3 then grabbing ali and going upstate til monday. steven and tony are going to stay over tmrw and sunday night, so it'll be a good time for sure. last night i saw hannah for the last time this summer because shes leaving for school tmrw morning. it sucked to say goodbye and we didn't see each other as much as i would've liked this summer. thanksgiving's so far away. i know i should get up and go to the gym right now because i won't work out again until monday, but i'm tired and lazy and don't care that much anymore. i hope i continue to go to the gym at school, i love the feeling. but knowing me i won't want to walk across campus in workout clothes so i'll just never go. i don't have much time left before school because this wknd is upstate, next week is packed with things i have to do to get ready for school, jill's birthday dinner, work, the dear hunter show, doctor appointments. saturday morning i leave for montreal, get home the 29th, get right in the car and go down to ocean grove for the weekend, get back monday and have 3 days to pack for school. i have so many people i still want to see before i leave and i hope i can do that. guess i should pack now. be home monday

aaaaaaaaaaah virginia was perfect! we hit the beach every day (big deal for us because we usually just stick around the pool). we met some GREAT people. charles and francois in particular, and we were with them for 6 days straight minus dinners and when we finally went to sleep. we played frisbee and volleyball and took long walks. anne and i rode bikes 3.5 miles into town one day because i unexpectedly got my period 2 weeks early (love it) and needed emergency tampons. we laid under the stars just the 4 of us every night, took walks along the beach and went crab hunting, got stung by jellyfish, jumped waves, ate ice cream, it was such a great vacation. since we spent so much time with the boys and got to know each other so well it was really hard for us all when it was time to leave, so anne and i are roadtripping to montreal to see them. it'll be interesting considering they speak a different language and use the metric system and canadian dollars, but we want to do it. so, we leave august 23 and return the 28th or 29th. i miss charles so much since we've left, it's unbearable. today was pretty good though, anne and i went to applebee's and got our usual boneless buffalo wings (hot) and oriental chicken rollup (grilled) and everything was delicious. then we went to best buy to look at movies and cameras and TV's, and ran into dan and joey. then i went back home and joey (different joey) picked me up for a boge ride (so sweet for him to come all the way from ossining) and we rode around and talked for a half an hour. then i had steak with my family and then hannah came over and we talked for 3 hours while i sipped on sauvignon blanc all night, my favorite. i have a huge list of people i need to see before i return to boston. i'm not ready to go back, i feel like summer's just getting started. i'm so worried about being able to find a job in september. i really don't want to work in retail again, 1. because i'm physically not allowed to do that since i'm seasonal at hot topic and can't have another job at a competing store. 2. i'm sick of working for 7.75/hr. NOT worth it, even if it is at h&m or urban. and if i am a waitress, the entire city is college kids, so those tips would be SO shitty. tomorrow i am going to mass because it's jill's birthday and i baked her a cake and have candles that say Jillian.. i can't wait to spend time with her, it's been over a month. so i need to be back for work on wednesday, then i have thursday free, which i'm hoping to see hannah before she leaves for school, but i'm also hoping to see matt colman since i haven't seen in seriously FOREVER and i miss him so much. friday and saturday i'm working, then straight from work i;m grabbing ali and we're going upstate for a night or two to spend with steven, south african sweetheart, tony, and my family and all the cousins. that should be a lottttt of fun :):) next week i'm going to get ready for school and work, and then we leave the 23rd, then the 29th i leave for ocean grove NJ for two nights, and then i get back and leave for school the 5th. i feel so good right now. i'm wearing the softest bathrobe ever just lounging in my bed. i could talk for another hour but i think i'll sleep. 

hi! life is fun. yesterday i went to christine's sex toy party, that was neat. then i went to larry's and was hammered after like 30 minutes of power hour because i haven't drank much in the last couple months. wednesday i went to see batman with rocky, it was great. and now i am leaving for VA beach. see you in a week!