ohhh boy, this is going to sound so dumb, i'm starting to get all emo with myself lately. everything's lost it's appeal, nothing is interesting. i hate this. i think it's maybe because i've just gotten adjusted to being back at home, and now i'm going to be ripped away from everyone in a month. and i keep thinking about it, it's too hard to just let go and have fun wherever i am. that used to be a simple task. now, no. and usually whenever i feel myself starting to get depressed i get emotional, but not this time. i'm not emotional at all, and i'm even on my period at the moment. what's going on with me? the only thing steady in my life now is a few good friends and going to the gym every day, which i really love. but whatever, so anyway.. i've gone to the fair last night which was alright.. it's not like i saw anyone i haven't seen in a while, because the people i went to meet up with (kelly, katie, tori, pasquale, anne, alicia) were the only ones i saw. im going again tonight and bringing ali along, and there are fireworks. i planned out the rest of my summer today. i normally don't like planning things in advance, but i feel so restless since i've gotten home from vacation, that all i want to do is go on vacation and vacation and vacation until it's time to go back to the real world, a.k.a school. so here's what i got (i have no idea how i'm going to ask for all of this off from work): august 2nd-9th, to virginia beach with anne. i go every year with her and her mother and sister and her friend. that's going to be a week of beach and pool and hot tub at night and meeting new people. it's going to be great i can't wait. august 11th is jill's birthday, so i haven't asked her yet but i'm hoping to go up with her and stay with her on that night. the next day (i haven't asked leigh yet either) but i want to go (maybe take jill, too) to stay with leigh in cape cod for a couple nights, hang out with her and hopefully go to the beach there too :) august 16th-18th i'm going to the summer house and bringing ali with me, and all my cousins will be there too so that should be a lot of fun. august 19th-22nd is HOPEFULLY stone harbor with marissa. stone harbor is a beautiful quaint little town on the jersey shore that not many people know about. my family used to go every summer for many years when i was growing up, and i haven't been in 4 or 5 years. must be back for the dear hunter/lydia/where the wild things are (!!) show at the loft on the 22nd. the next day is another TDH show at the school of rock in jersey. the next day is upstate again until the 27th, maybe someone will want to come with. the 28th i have to be back for my brother's show at the loft. and then finally i'll have about a week to prep for school and get all my things ready and get all new clothes. annnd lastly, next week tues-thurs i may be having katie, tori, and pasquale upstate, and jill will be up there too. if they can't come it's alright since i'll have jill and probably katy, who's got a house down the river. so that's my summer. i'm glad that i won't be home very much, and if i am home it'll just be to see friends or to work. i wanted to go to ft lauderdale to stay with jake and go to the beach everyday and party every night with him, because that sounds perfect right now, but i don't think that's going to work out. i wish it did because even though i'm unbelievably broke, the round trip airfare is only $234, and its not like i need hotel money. moving on, i can't decide what i think of katy perry's album. the girl is sooooo cute, the music's pretty catchy, but there's something about it that's stopping me from loving it. iiidkkk. sorry this was kind of a pointless entry, but that's what's goin on in ma heaaad righ now. nothing productive, really. byyyyye